Important Dates....

Kabhi Kabhi....

This is the LAST email of its type that I am sending you,
my true feelings about you and
I guess your true feelings too about me
This wont change even though everything else has changed……….

Hope u will keep this email with you always….

I know u said it so may times that you are not a kind of a person who would get involved in anyone or miss anyone…..

But I am sure that there will be some days, some moments in your life when “YOU WILL THINK OF ME, YOU WILL REMEMBER ME n YOU WILL MISS ME……

That time read this n remember about all the good times that we had together!

I will be always your
Good Angel
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Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayal aata hai,
ke jaise tujko banaya gaya hai mere liye.
Sometimes, the thought crosses my mind
That you've been made just for me..

Tu ab se pehle sitaron mein bas rahi thi kahin,
tuje jamin pe bulya gaya he mere liye.
You were a dweller of the stars before
You've been summoned to earth just for me

Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayal aata hai,
ke ye badan ye nighanon meri amanat hai,
Sometimes, the thought crosses my mind
This body and these eyes were preserved just for me

Yeh geshuon ki ghani chhaon hai meri khatir,
ye hothon aur yeh bahen meri amanat hai.
That these dark tresses of your hair are for me alone..
That these lips and these arms are solely in my care...

Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayal aata hai,
ke jaise bajti hai shenhaiyan si rahon mein,
Sometimes, the thought crosses my mind
Just as the **shenaai strikes a tune somewhere
** (musical instrument played in wedding)

Suhag raat hai ghoonghat utha raha hoon mein,
Simat rahi he tu sharma ke meri bahon mein.
I am lifting your bridal veil on our wedding night
And you are blushing in my arms...

Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayal aata hai,
jaise tu muje chehagi umrabhar younhi.
Sometimes, the thought crosses my mind
That you'll love me like this for life

Utthegi meri taraf pyaar ki nazar younhi,
main janta hun ke tu gair magar younhi.
Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayal aata hai,
And caress me with a loving gaze always
I know you're just a stranger, nevertheless
Sometimes, the thought crosses my mind
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Greeting Cards

02/06/07

Dear Joe,

This sadness shall pass....

.... and in its place you'll find
the strength to get through
this difficult time.

With sympathy & care,

Your's Good Angel

Hey, I know you like green & pink. So, I am ALL green today, one of your favorite colors. I hope this green on me & the pink on roses will delight you & will bring peace of mind for you.

I couldn't sleep last night, kept thinking of you. Its killing me inside to know that you are in disturbed state of mind & I can't help you.

If you need a PLACE to go & sit peacefully and a FRIEND to be with, just remember that me & my place are only few minutes away.

I hope to talk to you soon!

My heart goes out to you........ take care.

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12/11/06

Dear Joe,

I was feeling very depressed yesterday.
Bue as always, I ahd you to talk to & share my feelings....
You hug me and comfort me & make me feel so much better
and enlighten my life
I am so lucky to have you
as part of my life!


Your's
Good Angel
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10/08/06

Dear Joe,

Many Many
Happy Returns
Of the day.

May you live a long,
happy, healthy, wealthy
& successful life.

Love,
Good Angel

Some days are cold & dark
Some make us feel so alone

On those days
God knew we'd need
an extra hug or two

So he gave us friends
So that we would always have
an angel close
when we needed one.

Favorite Oneliners.....

My Oneliners

Meanie....
You Silly....
OK Baba....
OK Sweetie....
You are driving me crazy/nuts
Guess what....
I have to tell you something crazy....
I have to show you something....
I have never done this before....
This has never happened before....
Did you work out?....
How did you take care of it?....
No more work out for you....
Are you going to be online?....
You have to make it upto me....
You missed it....
If you say so....
I believe you....

Your Oneliners

Go away....
Get the hell out of here....
Yes Mistress....
I say so....
Because.... Just because....
There is always first time for everything....
Where are my pictures?
Show me.... now....NOW....NOW
Take it off.... now....NOW....NOW
You are crazy....
You look good today....
You look great, You smell great, You feel great, You taste great....
Look what you did to me....
I had to take care of it....
I can prove that...
I am not leaving until you tell me....
I have to go (The one-liner that I don't like ;)

Your Poem

Hi Dear,

This is the poem you had written for me last year in July. I thought I should post it here.

To My "Good Angel"

Your eyes are like two shimmering pools
When I gaze at them I lose all notions of up and down
A mere glance from you penetrates me to the depths of my soul
Your touch is like a fire that will not cool
Your lips call me to be kissed and caressed
I desire to take you into my arms
Let me wrap you in a long embrace

some more for you....

Neend aayee toh khwab aaye,
khawab aaye toh aap aaye...
issi kash-ma-kash mein raat guzar gayi,
na neend aayee, na aap aaye!

If I could get sleep, I can get a dream
If I could get a dream, I can get you (in my dreams)
In these thoughts, night went by
Neither did I get sleep, nor did I get you…..


Tanhai Mein Faryad To Kar Sakte Hai,
Viraane Ko Abaad To Kar Sakte Hai,
Kya Hua Aapse Mil Nahi Sakte,
Par Aapke Khwaab main toh aa sakte hain

In my loneliness, I can atleast remember you
In my barren life, I can make it lively atleast by thinking of you
So what if we can’t meet
Atleast in your dreams, I can come to you…


Apni zindagi main mujhe shareek samajhna,
Koi gam aaye to kareeb samajhna.
De sakun muskurahat aashun ke badale,
Hajaro dosto me thoda ajeej samajhna....

Know that I am part of your life…
Know that I am always there when you are in pain
Hope I can trade your tears with my smile..
Know that I am “special friend” among your thousands of friends..

You are important part of my life

Hi Dear....
I felt good after talking to u today. I am so glad that we met last year and you are such an important person in my life....... I am sorry that I didnt use our study time for studies today.
But then I am glad that I have someone with whom I can talk everything, share my true feelings, and who not only listen to me but can give me his honest opinions and feedback and guidance to me and who is there for me when I need.....

I know that there are times when you are upset or sad or frustrated about something.. but in those times, you never share anything with me.. you rather stay away from me....I know that it is your type.. and not that I want you in those situations... but if ever you are upset, sad, mad, frustrated... do know that there is someone who is out here... who loves you n cares about u & your well-being... and you can always talk to her about your worries, your pains...

I should admit that I did try to stay away from you this time.... I didnt come to work on Tue.. Wed I was in office, but I didnt stop by at your desk... & today I had decided that I will not vent it out & bother you & will just focus on studies....... but it just happens that when I am facing you, I cant lie to you that I am doing fine & happy & all... and you know me so well that you can figure it out quickly... & then the truth comes out....... but its good that we talked..... & you know lot of what you said is so true......you said it so right.....

I wonder sometimes how it would have been if we were together & how life would have been with you.........

There are couple other things bothering me.... someday I will tell you those.....

well..... you are on your long weekend schedule, and I am not sure if you will read this email in next couple of days..... I dont want to spoil your weeekend....so on little lighter side......

Remember what I told you this evening before you left....... I had to lie a bit due to that......

you know what.... even a simple caring & passionate touch of yours, a hug and a kiss on my forehead tells me so much more than words could say............thanks sweetie for being there for me...........i am lucky that i have you in my life........ i know you are not a part of my life as you are part of their life......and you are not going to be with me always as you will be with them..... not in literal terms.........but you are still a very important part of my life & for me you are always there when i need you...........& I love you for that.............

- Good Angel

rim zhim gire sawan

rim zhim gire sawan... sulag sulag jaye maan....
bhige aaj is mausam me.... lagi kaisi ye aagan....

rim zhim is the sound of drizzling rain..... this song is so perfect for seattle weather and describes our situation..........

its been raining rim zhim.. like drizzlng n raining.... my mind is wandering.... this moment, this weather is wet and rainy.. and my body is wet too.... wet things do not catch fire... .. but inside my wet body, there is a strange fire,, strange desire....(about you)....

when are you going to extinguish this fire?

I don't know what to write....

I don't know what to write, but I still want to write something. I know you have never been to my blog, but in case you visit my blog and reading this article, then ignore it. And, yes this blog is about YOU and ME, but this article is not about YOU and ME, its just about ME.... so my frustration, my disappointment expressed today is not about you sweetie, its all about me and my life. I am just writing it here as I don't have anyone to talk to about it....so, don't blame yourself for anything that I might say.....I still like you, I still miss you and I still lvoe you the same....and sorry, I don't mean to drag you into my problems, so don't stress out in case you read this... just ignore it...

Sometimes life gets too complicated, lot of things happening, you are not sure what you want to do. It comes to such a mode that there are two roads from here. But you are not sure which road you want to choose, because whichever road you choose, you will have to stick to that. Changing the road again may be difficult or even impossible.

Sometimes, making decision is not that critical and life just moves on. But I think I am standing at a point where withought making a decision I can't move forward. I have to choose between these two roads, and unless I choose it, I can't continue my journey, and I have to make this decision quickly. Its like I am in the middle of the ocean, in a small boat. I have two shores that I ca go to, one on each side. I have to decide where I want to go, otherwise I will sink here or I will be forced to make a decision.

I am confused, stressed out, tired, irritated, exhausted and I feel the need to talk to someone, someone whom I can trust, someone who can understand me and my situation, someone who can guide me, show me the light, someone whom I can see and talk to in person, someone for whom I am important enough that he/she is willing to spend time with me and help me, someone who cares for me and loves me........

I usually prefer not to discuss my problems with anyone, or not to share my feelings with anyone...I keep it to myself pretty much.... but I know at this time I am in need of someone whom I can go and talk to.....

I wish my life has never taken this turn.......oh well, I can't even think straight... I should stop now I guess.... there so much going on right now in my mind, I can't put it on paper and even if I can, its not going to help me any way....