I don't know what to write, but I still want to write something. I know you have never been to my blog, but in case you visit my blog and reading this article, then ignore it. And, yes this blog is about YOU and ME, but this article is not about YOU and ME, its just about ME.... so my frustration, my disappointment expressed today is not about you sweetie, its all about me and my life. I am just writing it here as I don't have anyone to talk to about it....so, don't blame yourself for anything that I might say.....I still like you, I still miss you and I still lvoe you the same....and sorry, I don't mean to drag you into my problems, so don't stress out in case you read this... just ignore it...
Sometimes life gets too complicated, lot of things happening, you are not sure what you want to do. It comes to such a mode that there are two roads from here. But you are not sure which road you want to choose, because whichever road you choose, you will have to stick to that. Changing the road again may be difficult or even impossible.
Sometimes, making decision is not that critical and life just moves on. But I think I am standing at a point where withought making a decision I can't move forward. I have to choose between these two roads, and unless I choose it, I can't continue my journey, and I have to make this decision quickly. Its like I am in the middle of the ocean, in a small boat. I have two shores that I ca go to, one on each side. I have to decide where I want to go, otherwise I will sink here or I will be forced to make a decision.
I am confused, stressed out, tired, irritated, exhausted and I feel the need to talk to someone, someone whom I can trust, someone who can understand me and my situation, someone who can guide me, show me the light, someone whom I can see and talk to in person, someone for whom I am important enough that he/she is willing to spend time with me and help me, someone who cares for me and loves me........
I usually prefer not to discuss my problems with anyone, or not to share my feelings with anyone...I keep it to myself pretty much.... but I know at this time I am in need of someone whom I can go and talk to.....
I wish my life has never taken this turn.......oh well, I can't even think straight... I should stop now I guess.... there so much going on right now in my mind, I can't put it on paper and even if I can, its not going to help me any way....
